how we do it

I got asked today a questoin I have been asked a million times. How do I do it being a firefighters wife. After reading a book by another FF wife this is what I have come to know.

I have watched my husband salute 4 caskets of his Firefighter Friends.
I have watched my husband go into burning structures when others are running away.
I have watched my husband question himself and his actions after not being able to save an 8 year old.
I have watched my husband tear up whlie watching 9/11 footage knowing that the beeping sound heard from the rubble is the motion alarms on FF's air packs.
I have watched my husband respond to car accidents on I-15. Helping the victims while others speed feet away from him at 80 miles an hour.
I have watched my husband load pliers into his pockets so he doesn't get stuck again in a fire by the wires hanging from the ceiling.

But I have also watched my husband beg to go back to work after being on medical leave for only a week.
I have watched my husband happily tell about the woman who was flat line and 5 minutes later after CPR wanted to continue dancing and not go to the hospital.
I have watched my husband experience the brotherhood of the fire service. Dropping anything to go help one of them, and them doing the same.
I have watched the holidays be just as happy at the station as they would have been with family.
I have watched my husband be loved and admired by the senior guys.
I have watched my husband return home with the biggest smile on his face, and happier than ever.
I have watched my husband find the place he finally belongs.
I have watched my husband come home!!!

Yes I am very aware of what Brian does and the sacrifices we both make. But all that matters to me is he thinks he has the best job in the world. And I think that my job as a firefighter wife is the best one, too.